Before my camera got stole up I was taking a lot of photos of girls.  I even have a little Tumblr site called Nicholas Gazin’s Photos of Girls.  Recently mu obsession with photographic girls lead me to directing and editing a little commercial (shot by Chris Person) for a used clothing store in Manhattan called Metropolis (43 3rd Avenue).  That’s the commercial up above.  The song in it is “S & M Party” by Red Cross who later became better known as Redd Kross. But now I digress…

I’ve been taking photos for a while now. But I especially like to take to photos of girls. Being a man of nerdy interests I’ve hung out with a lot of people who claimed to not understand women,  or who wanted to tell me the differences between men and women as they understood them.

The straight men and gay women I’ve known who tend to claim they don’t understand women, I’ve come to find just really don’t understand people in general. They only notice their social failings with women because they want to fuck them and dominate their time/mind/lives in some way that they don’t want to with dudes.

It’s hard to say how capable people are of understanding what others feel.  Infants have no ability to feel empathy. At some point their brains develop enough that they can.  Do people gain the ability to feel empathy or are we just trained into not hitting other people because we’re afraid of getting punished?

I’ll only ever see things from behind my eyes and no one else will ever see exactly what I see. No one can eject the little Luke Skywalker action figure that is my consciousness from the X-Wing toy that is my body, and put another in it.  Sometimes it seems like all that exists is Me and Everything Else.

For me, taking photos of girls is a way of examining the things in the world that aren’t me in a way that’s entertaining and palatable to viewers. I’m not a girl and I’ll never be a girl so they represent other people for me. People like to look at pictures of girls. Girls like looking at girls, men like looking at girls and  like photographing girls.

Hayao Miyazaki had a tendency towards using little girls as protaganists in his movies. Girls can be strong and proactive but they can also cry and be vulnerable without the audience thinking that they’re wimps.

Taking photos is a fun way to interact with people and their reaction to the presence of a camera can be bery revealing.  I used to know a girl who would almost always open her mouth and put her hand on her neck whenever she saw a camera… like before it even got into photo taking range. Some girls get really upest and hate having their photos taken…I don’t really understand how that works in their minds? Maybe if I keep doing this I will someday.

I’ve run out of things to say about girls, but here are more pictures I took of girls.

Maybe the truth is that girls are just horrible monsters sent here to torment lonely losers…I don’t know? But if you want to contribute money to help me getting a new camera so I can keep documenting these awesome creatures (or horrible monsters, depending on your outlook) then paypal me some money on over to ngazin@yahoo.com.

I’m sure all you people reading this blog are all super rich and can afford it. Plus I need a new camera and you like seeing pictures of girls.

- Toilet Cobra